Why?

Why's Adrienne upset over paying $80 for a bunch of photos? I hear my housemates complain about how I showed my discontentment with the decision to take all 32 photos for $480. Listen, if you want to talk about me behind my back, do it professionally... Don't let me hear it. Why don't you just tell it to me face to face?

I am upset because it's a rip off. We're paying too much for things like that. My personal aim was just to get a few decent sized ones, and go. I'm even more upset because it was my idea that we go for the photoshoot. I've got a $121 voucher that I thought I would like to share. I had no idea that it's to pay for only my photo and the photo service. In the end, we didn't have to pay for the professional photography taking session- just the photos; and I really just like a few photos very much.

Now, the most economically viable decision was made but how are we going to divide the photos? There's an inbalance in the number of photos taken. There are more photos of certain people. There are quite a lot of photos of me and Steve. It made me think about what will happen when we have to leave each other. It made me think of what I should do with the photos.

When I'm upset, it's not like I go around muttering curses. I just get realy quiet and I don't smile. Just because I talk and laugh so often, it doesn't mean I'm not vulnerable. I am physically stressed due to lack of sleep, mentally stressed because I have so much uni work that I don't know how to do or proceed and now it's affecting my emotions.

And when I'm upset, I can't stand the sight of happy, chirpy people. They make me regret feeling miserable.

Fireflies

by Owl City

"I'd like to make myself believe, that planet Earth turns slowly"

"It's hard to say I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep"

"Coz everything is never as it seems"

I wish the world would stop for a bit. Give me a break please. Little things are upsetting me when they shouldn't. I should be thankful rather than jealous. I should be happy and take things more lightly. I should, but I'm tired. Hmph, how come I always waste so much time? GRRRR If I can bloody pass this freakin year, at least I can have some pride in calling myself an engineer.

Blah, Adrienne, again, why so serious?